Myself

I belong to myself

 

I have always belonged to myself
but just noticed again, that it's true
you must be kind and recognize every second of how you feel
and what to do for you and make it real~
I have belonged to others for so long, this is a new adventure
Mostly painful, with times of joy and peace and freedom
They last longer as time goes by
that is my ultimate goal, joy and peace and to just be me~

Sadness

I belong to grief and sadness again
My best friend Rick is dying right now of an aneurysm
I just talked to his wife and I fell to my knees again
I know she is going to sink into the grief soon
Just talked to him yesterday, they were planning a trip to Idaho
His happy, laughing spirit remains
the sadness has swept it's way in again

I belong to the happy memories I've had the last 2 months with Rick and Tammy
Living down the road from them catching up on the last 30 something years
His happy, joyful, funny spirit will be so missed by all!
I belong to the memory of that friendship forever

I belong to the fact that my friends and I are starting to take our turn on the path of life & death
We never know when, we never know how, just enjoy the now
One day at a time is about all I can do now,
my life I hope might be that way for the rest of my days
you can't look to far ahead, or to far behind
the time is now,
it is painfully so~~~~~
Goodbye Rick~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~it's hard to let go~~

Dreams

I belong to my dreams of what that could be
A new life of joy, but what,

but how?
Keep moving along
Keep steady and strong
Some days shake me to my knees
with my dreams in the breeze
Where do I belong?~

Lonely Heart

I belong to my lonely heart pain
I know if I keep positive and hoping for faith to wash away the pain
faith that I will stop wondering where do I belong?
I've belonged to so many things in my life, I never stopped to absorb that thought
for the last 18 years my life and heart belonged to my love of my life, Lars

How do you keep that love and continue on, knowing it's gone
How to now figure out how I belong to my own life again?
What does that mean?
What does that look like?
I guess I need to continue on and find out~~

Love of friends

I belong to the hope that I will have love again
I believe I have it in me, but I'm not sure how that will look
I believe in hope~

I belong to my friends
they are my soul
they are my love
I belong to my wonderful friends~